Broadburn - Lying to myself

Verse 1

When you told me about her i was hit with relief
Knew it was over even when you 2 were breathe
You apologised then you asked me i told you it didn’t effect me
Told that i was feeling better my mind was free
I’d laugh about those days for a good while
Now there’s tears behind every smile
Left in complete denial
Things are now absolute miles from that treasured time

Bridge
You’d never know the agony the 3am blades ignite that batter and clatter my mind night after night
I’m clinically insane i really need help
Because all this time i’ve been lying to myself

Verse 2
Please i need some sort of diffusion
At this point it’s all absolute delusion
I know that it’s over i know there’s no future weeks before it’s all over forgotten without no traces
After then will never again see each overs faces
Minds and hearts in new places
It’s a perpetual torment
A caged animal the can’t be freed
Can never tell you the truth it’s not what you need
It will only make it worse flatten what little we have now
But the truth you never did and never or will love me
I’m a lovesick monster completely creepy

Bridge
But i miss the butterfly’s
Refreshing like a mad man waiting for your replies
All my early hour cries
I was in love and i made it all die
If i were concealed kept to my head it could of survived
But awkwardness after everything i had to loose you it went dry
Watched it with my own eyes
The torture every time i walks through that door
Knowing it’s not what it was anymore


Verse 3

How do i forget all the pain where it went wrong
All the red flags how you led me on
I was broken played bruised
But my heart forgets it’s absolute confused
At this point its
A tortured reality drenched in insanity
Absolute fantasy everlasting obsession
The procedures on my brain can’t cause oppression
I fault this was over but now i face great regression
Truth is i'm lying to myself i still fucking love you