CODE:WORDS - The Best I Feel is Numb

Numb

In the dark I can see it so clear
When it’s silent I can still hear
All the pain, all the shame
Kicking the panic into high gear
When a dream becomes a nightmare
And it’s more than I can take
Am I fucked? Or is this just another bad day?

When is it enough, will it ever be enough?

The scars on my heart are screaming
I feel my stomach sinking
I’m all alone and no one knows
Why I’m always overthinking
Read the words from my lips now
I won’t ever find the words to say
I’m all fucked up and I need love
No one ever listens anyway

When is it enough, will it ever be enough?
When is it enough does anybody give a fuck?
So close to giving in, giving up
So tired of smiling biting through my tongue
They say the best is yet to come
But the best I feel is numb
Numb
You say I’m see through
And then proceed to
Cut through the hole inside my chest
(Cut through the hole inside)
Ohhh if you knew
The war I’ve been through
Me at my worst is all that’s left
That’s left, that’s left, that’s all of me that’s left

When is it enough, will it ever be enough?
When is it enough does anybody give a fuck?
So close to giving in, giving up
So tired of smiling biting through my tongue
They say the best is yet to come
But the best I feel is numb
Numb