Elliot Valentine Lee, Mel Hornyak - I Love You, I Swear

Ambrose
Why can’t i love you, or hate you
Or any feeling in between?
Just plug me in and turn me on
I’ll be a good machine
I can love you like i need you
I can fuck you like i don’t
I don’t want to deceive you
But i’m more frightened that i won’t
I want to make you happy; so you shouldn’t be aware
Of why i keep repeating it- i love you, i swear
I should be grateful you’ll have me
You’ve said as much before
You’re everything i wanted
So why do i keep seeking more?
Even if i were to leave you
Nothing better’s guaranteed
No mеn i want would want me
But that won’t carve away the need
Whеn i try to meet your eyes i see someone else’s there
The words taste bitter in my mouth- i love you, i swear

But don’t look at me too closely
Or don’t look at me at all
Something’s screaming in the background
Something’s clawing at the wall

Please touch me, but don’t touch me
You’ve been cherished, you’ve been warned
I’m an exquisite broken statue
I am perfectly deformed

I’m not worth the full attention
Of anyone worth mine
Nothing’s wrong with you- what’s wrong with me?
Why can’t our hearts align?
If i was stronger i could fix this;
Cut the bad and leave the good
Be the marble and the sculptor
Like my father says i should
To stand before the mirror, my skin and shoulders bare
And say without repeating it- i love you, i swear