Cory Lawless - Life of Mine

{verse}
My demons laughing again
At the delusion of this illusion
Causing mass confusion
Got me drinking booze again
Living like a fool my man
Drugs i choose my friend
Did it pass the limit again, hit the ceiling
Pop enough pills that kill most humans
Snorting anything i can crush down to numb my feelings
Hallucinating with my demons
They my true friends
Living in this hell but everyday i'm right here
The weight i can't bare i tried
The devil got me trapped in his web it's a lie
I did it all the drugs and i'm still not high
Fucking why?
I overcame my past just to drown in the present
My future don't exist
I became the man that's a peasant, i grew up to be shit
Karma, here's my present
I'm just a glitch in this matrix
Happiness don't exist, just chemicals that mix
Fusing in the mind at the right time
I lack it in mine
Tell you everything is fine cause i'm high, cause i'm high

{chorus}
I hate this life of mine
I just want to die
Nah i change my mind
I love this life of mine
Dying to live for the first time
I used to live wishing i would die
Depression almost took my life
Addictions made them all die
Why god did i survive?
This life of mine
Oh, this life of mine

{verse}
Evil monkey on my back reminds me i'm not fine
That stranger in the mirror, don't trust him he lies
I laugh when i should cry, i feel no pain i'm too high
I'm not fine
Got addicted trying hide from this life of mine
I was blind till everyone died
Doing the same as me god why did i survive?
Flipping something from nothing in the wrong direction
That money went quick only two cents is left, shit!
The sins of the past has me held back stressing
I'm blessed to be here, it's a gift to be alive
But inside i want to die
Depression all i'm seeing!
Trying manifest a meaning to my being!
Will i die in vain?
Or is the pain for a reason?
Threw away today with yesterday's demons
Got high, while dying to live, living to die agh!
I be toxic and i be a healer!
I be a victim and i be a killer!
I be the saint and i be the sinner!
I hate me yet i love who i be... i'm lawless yet fucked up! an piece of shit ugh

{chorus}
I hate this life of mine
I just want to die
Nah, i change my mind
I love this life of mine
Dying to live for the first time
I used to live wishing i would die
Depression almost took my life
Addictions made them all die
Why god did i survive?
This life of mine
Oh, this life of mine