​ghostdaughter - Vermont ave

{verse 1}
I wish we were friends when we were kids
I've gotten so much older now, i'll deal with it
Like when i didn't recognize my mother wearing a wig
And i made her cry, gave her something else to fix

{chorus}
I'm so selfish but maybe that's just growing up
Fill my body up with innocence until i throw it up
And my chest hurts from never being what you want
And i can never sleep right, i'm shaking until dawn

{refrain}
But when i'm gone, don't go and find no one better
I know i'm selfish but i promise i'm trying
When i'm gone, if my ghost wants to hold you, let her
I'm so selfish when i call you crying

{verse 2}
I miss stealing wine and crushing pills in our drinks
Now my apartment's mostly mirrors, i just stare at the sink
And i feel so alone out here
It never rains, i can't see stars, i end up drowning in fear
Pace around inside a box until i'm buried in one
You were my daylight, now i'm afraid of the sun
I'm hanging up above the freeway, i can't block out the noise
You're telling me to calm down like i ever had a choice, i'm sorry

{refrain}
When i'm gone, don't go and find no one better
I know i'm selfish but i promise i'm trying
When i'm gone, if my ghost wants to hold you, let her
I'm so selfish when i call you crying