Blood Girl - I Can't

This song won’t write it self instead i yank it out with force
I keep on twisting hoping something gives something like sweet remorse
I don't remember anymore why i now avoid my friends
Something just split in me and then i kept on wishing for the end
I had a conflict brewing up, something that felt just like a storm
But now my feelings simmered down and chose to hide and shrivel up
I cannot vocalise my fears i cannot feel when i am mad
I cannot dream about the good i only dream about the bad
I only dream about the bad

Hi how are you? i am shit, in fact i'm getting worse and worse
I want to cry but i feel numb, someone just call the fucking nurse
I keep on hitting what i thought was now the lowest of my low
But then there's something under that, another endless hungry hole
I know you’ll hate me in the end, i feel it come to that at last
I am too needy, i'm too much, i am like touching broken glass
You cannot care for me enough, and i can’t satisfy my needs
So i will want and i will want and i will never feel relief
I want to die i want to dig a hole to hide in for a while
I want to sleep until i finally wake up and start to cry
I feel so strung up like a rubberband, two seconds till i pop
But i can’t stop myself from bottling everything up

I am wicked worse and what a curse that is
To be the ever lonely wicked witch
I am so overly involved
But i am still detached
I want to help you but i can’t