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{intro}
(lisa floyd's 911 call)
{verse 1}
I can't fall asleep no more, there's demons in the corner
And they're kicking down the door, i loosened up the hinges
I've been doing meditation, i still take my meditation
But, the medicine ain't working for me, been retaliating on me
Walking like a zombie on the pain pills
I ain't gotta pay bills, but i'm still spending money i ain't got, it's like a treadmill
Feeling like my life is on a cycle
All my closest friends are suicidal
I used to wanna kill myself but died when i was thirteen
Started making music and my counselor was worried, but saw me getting pinned against the wall
Lately i've been dodging all the calls
I don't wanna talk to you unless you tell me sorry
Every day's the same, a different story from you, unless you want some comfort from me
{verse 2}
I talked about you to my therapist and how you truly love me
But, it's kinda funny
I think it's kinda funny how i love you but i really hate it
I don't know what love is
How can i take care of you if i can't love myself?
Taking all the pictures off my shelf that i put up of you
Why do i put up with you?
Because of you i'm lying to myself and i promised all my friends that i wouldn't do the things i did again
I hope they can forgive me for my sins
I called you off the pain meds twice, you didn't answer
Spreading to my brain, you're like a cancer
My ex girl was a cancer, but i don't listen to the stars
If imma be a star, i guess i'll quit before i start
I'm about to relapse cause' you're a drug to me
When you're drugging me i relax
It's a luxury i guess
{intro}
(lisa floyd's 911 call)
{verse 1}
I can't fall asleep no more, there's demons in the corner
And they're kicking down the door, i loosened up the hinges
I've been doing meditation, i still take my meditation
But, the medicine ain't working for me, been retaliating on me
Walking like a zombie on the pain pills
I ain't gotta pay bills, but i'm still spending money i ain't got, it's like a treadmill
Feeling like my life is on a cycle
All my closest friends are suicidal
I used to wanna kill myself but died when i was thirteen
Started making music and my counselor was worried, but saw me getting pinned against the wall
Lately i've been dodging all the calls
I don't wanna talk to you unless you tell me sorry
Every day's the same, a different story from you, unless you want some comfort from me
{verse 2}
I talked about you to my therapist and how you truly love me
But, it's kinda funny
I think it's kinda funny how i love you but i really hate it
I don't know what love is
How can i take care of you if i can't love myself?
Taking all the pictures off my shelf that i put up of you
Why do i put up with you?
Because of you i'm lying to myself and i promised all my friends that i wouldn't do the things i did again
I hope they can forgive me for my sins
I called you off the pain meds twice, you didn't answer
Spreading to my brain, you're like a cancer
My ex girl was a cancer, but i don't listen to the stars
If imma be a star, i guess i'll quit before i start
I'm about to relapse cause' you're a drug to me
When you're drugging me i relax
It's a luxury i guess
