Vyper Syren - Pain

{ verse 1 }
I don't think i can wait that long
Don't act like you didn't do no wrong


It's either no one can save me
Or i don't want to be saved
I'm trying so hard to change me
Maybe i'd have it no other way

If we're both here
Then why do we need to play games?
You live so fucking near
You live just five minutes away

Can't even give me one fucking minute
You're testing my limits

You tell me you're my friend
But i don't understand
Up towards the end
This all felt like it was planned
If i go back to you
Then i don't respect myself

I guess i deserved it
Thanks for the lesson
Tried so hard to reverse it
Gave myself a death sentence

Will you remember me
Even when you're happy?

What i've got was what i've done
After all i've fought
Now i'm the one who's shunned

I'm falling behind
Now i'm beneath you
These thoughts in my mind
Now you all can see through

You knew my last days are coming
But would you save me?

I hate being the victim
I just wanted you to listen
Not much has changed for you
I'm just not the one who's next to you

This is what i wanted
So why am i not happy?
I'll take the first step
Before i drown in regret

I might never know
I can't wait for hope
Maybe we'll meet again
The greatest pain is not knowing when

Am i willing to gamble?
You turned my trust to shambles

It never really goes away
It still lingers
I know what i should do
But i still need to hear it from you

It's so hard to feel
My time you steal
I skip most my meals
My mind won't heal

I thought you'd be there for me
Like how i'd always do for you
I wish i had a gun
I wish i had the courage to jump
I wish i had a place to run