Blood Girl - Shitty enuff

Tired of seeing my own face
Hearing my own songs
Spending my own days
Tired of always doing everything
Doing it for everyone
With nothing to say

I can’t feel things
I’m just tired
I’m lonely and i’m tired
I feel like i am 15 again
With expirary dates on my friendships
Sorta just wasting time alone
Why is it that just because i am depressed
I have to feel totally disconnected from my friends
Being alone is healthy sometimes
But i isolate myself then i wanna die

Why is it that just because i’m empathetic
Peoplе feel like they can fucking forget mе
I am needy too, desperate for love
Im sensitive and broken and depend on other people a lot

I can't always be strong
I can't always be tough
I've learned that no matter how bad im feeling
Its never bad enough

Tired of seeing my own face
Hearing my own voice
Following my own pace
Tired of always giving second chances
Third and fourth chances
To everyone

I’m hurt too
I’m tired
And hurt too and i’m tired
I feel like i’m 11 again
Accepting life means isolation
Means you just keep to yourself
Why is it that i dont know myself
That used to be the only thing i knew well
Being depressed is bad
Sometimes
But it also makes me look at all the things i dont do right

Like feeling that i’m the one
Whos supposed to carry everyone i love
Im a fucking idiot too
I’m not always great
I just want somebody to hold me and tell me i’m ok

I can't always be good
I can’t always hold on
I’ve learned that no matter how shitty someone is they’re never shitty enough