Katie - This isnt how i want to be

You ever look yourself in the mirror and see the real you
You look at those ugly features and just don’t know what to do
You want to see yourself the way others can
But you can’t, im just not a fan
Mhm not good enough, never have been, never will be
This isn’t who I want to be

Ask the people around me how they see me, and how I am
All they can say is that I am what I am
Not good, not bad, caught in between
Just weird, not normal, this feeling ain't too keen
This isn’t who I want to be

Ive been lost in my mind, lost in my thoughts
All these things runnin round man issa lot
Yea We all have our struggles our ups and downs
But ive hit the hard ground, yea ive hit the hard ground
This isn’t who I want to be

We all live our lives, we’ve got one shot
We can choose to make the most or to not
I wanna change
I wanna feel free
Cuz right now man
This isn’t who I want to be