The Funeral Portrait - The Optimist

Oh how I've longed for silence
(You were calling for evening)
You won't believe the year I've has
(It falls) behind these pulsing eyelids (Here it is)
I saw the truth, the ever-haunting truth

Dear one
(I will never forgive myself
No one could have shown me how
It's almost over now)
I am opening myself for you

My bones ache from any vibration
(I will never forgive myself)
No one else could show me how
It's almost over now)

The lies I've kept to vindicate
Relapse to self destruction
To save myself I imitate a man of pure devotion
Dissect my palms to simulate a fragment of emotion
Primary urge to mutilate
I'm moving in slow motion

Dear one
(I will never forgive myself
No one could have shown me how
It's almost over now)
I am opening myself for you

My bones ache
(I will never forgive myself)
No one else could show me how
It's almost over now)
From any vibration

Dear one
(I will never forgive myself
No one could have shown me how
It's almost over now)
I am opening myself for you

Dear one
(I will never forgive myself
No one could have shown me how
It's almost over now)
I am opening myself for you

Dear one
(I will never forgive myself
No one could have shown me how
It's almost over now)
I am opening myself for you

I will never forgive myself
No one could have shown me how
It's almost over now