LYF THE RAPPER - 3AM THOUGHTS

{intro}
Yeah
Can you hear me?
I'm trying to get this thing working
Think we're good
K, i'm ready

{verse 1}
It's 3am in miami, trying to get a grammy
Expressing how i feel cause nobody else understand me
Trying to get a check so i can give back to my family
You name is, but your vibes is giving stanley
Cruise around the city, staring at the lights
Thinking 'bout what i could do just to make it right
Cause ever since you left, loyal girls been out of sight
Now i'm thinking 'bout the way to turn you better through the night
Reminiscing 'bout the days you accepted me for myself
Cause ever since i leveled up you wanted someone else
I don't think i need a change, i think i, need some help
But that'll never help, so i focus on getting wealth
I tried to change my actions, but when i do, the people switch
I thought you wanted me to be better than this
Yeah, i guess you take me as a joke, or just a kid
But i got feelings too, and now you know the things i did
Throughout my 14 years in life i felt like i been lost
So i tried to make the music, i was reaching for the cost
Now they look at me differently as if i'm some sort of boss
I was deep inside the crowd, trying to win, like a game of (?...)

{interlude}
Hey
I was just calling to say, that

{verse 2}
I'm like the crowd, i like to just keep my distance
People inside my mind, yeah, i just be saying distant
When i step on the mic, i tried to hit you, know i ain't missing
But when she come around, i light up just like a (?...)
I lie, it's probably more just like a torch
I remember i was thinking 'bout my future on the porch
Hoping that i wouldn't turn out like a quiet little dork
Thankfully that didn't happen but my page running it's course
Know i haven't been the same lately, but that's alright
I'm just worried 'bout my health, i'm praying i can live my life
Long enough so i can strive, if you ask me out tonight
I don't even want to lie, it's been a while since i cried
I done tried, it don't work, i'm just praying hopefully that
I don't end up on a shirt people 'round us hating so we got to
Watch for if they lurk, got to make sure i'm okay so i don't
End up in the dirt, people hating cause they hurt
It's 3am and i'm stuck inside my thoughts
Wondering when, how i made it out the battles that i fought
Yeah, i learned a couple lessons from the times that i had lost
But the journey keeps me going every time i get across
Like a dream, i got a vision, but these people never listen
I'm just sick and tired of wasting from time to time i be switching
Thinking 'bout the days i'm missing, future chain, it's gon' be glisting
I ain't worried 'bout these girls cause i always know they be tricking
Yeah, i said, sitting on the rooftop of a city train
Thinking 'bout the ways to make a hit while letting go of pain
Trying to rap my head and heart out, yeah, in hopes that i sustain
Yeah, i'm sitting in the rain, no umbrella, just a brain
Got to keep on moving, i can hear them mimicking my name
Saying calvin you a g.o.a.t, then, you insane
Every day i'm feeling drained, thinking what is there to gain
At this moment i'm just focused on staying good in my lane

{outro}
It has nothing to do with you, you didn't change, it was me
One day, things did not feel the same
I felt myself drifting away and my feelings began to wane with each passing day, like, a leak