Twisthiphop - I lie so I don't cry

{hook}

I lie so i don't cry
I try so i don't die
Sidelined, broken, won't fly
Lifelined soldier, hope fights
The ocd, man, it's killing me
Rap is the only thing saving me
Tryna survive, yeah, i better be
Tryna find out my identity, yeah
I lie so i don't cry, i try so i don't die
Sidelined, i got no flights, but i'm lifelined so the hope fights

{verse 1}

Seven years since mom died but i'm still numb most nights
I wake up every day but i still have no life
Football practice three days a week then i nosedive
In thе pool, football like liverpool, yeah, thosе guys
Then the school, there i close eyes
It's middle school, then i go ninth grade
Little stools, like an old bike and wannabe bullies, yeah, they pitiful
They ridicule but they don't bite, like a pitbull with dog cones
I'm sick of dudes that i don't like
Now i'm missing school, not most times
Like once, twice a month's time
My dad tries but sometimes he gets drunk like "oh my"
And he says things that hurts my feelings
And my bro frightened, i calm them both
I am so glad at the same time that my dad never gave up since mom died
But i've been a father too, to myself and my bro
And this stress building up, i'm just fourteen years old
I value alone time, only then, i control
I respect my elders but i'm still scared of what'll unfold so

{hook}

I lie so i don't cry (i lie so i don't cry)
And i try so i don't die (i try so i don't die)
Sidelined, broken, won't fly (sidelined, broken, won't fly)
Lifelined soldier, hope fights (let's go!)
The ocd, man, it's killing me
Rap is the only thing saving me
Tryna survive, yeah, i better be
Tryna find out my identity
I lie so i don't cry, i try so i don't die
Sidelined, i got no flights
But i'm lifelined so the hope fights, yeah the hope fights