RYANN - Gay Struggles

{verse 1}
I want to live in a town filled with troye and olivia fans
‘cause i’m afraid to hold my boyfriends hand when i go on the streets

{verse 2}
I don’t get to close to my male friends because i’m afraid they might think i have a crush on them

{pre-chorus}
But please don’t get me wrong ‘cause in the end i’m grateful that i’m allowed to love a boy

{chorus}
These struggles shouldn’t exist
All my life i was trained to kill the person that i was born to be
I don’t allow myself to have some fun ‘cause i don’t even know what i, what i truly want

{verse 3}
Now what if someday i dеcide i want to wear an earring
Do my friеnds still want to hang out with me?
I don’t want to take that risk
So i keep on denying who my true self is

{verse 4}
I really try to stop caring about what other people think of me
But how can i do that when all i see are couples on the news getting punished for who they really are

{verse 5}
I feel like i’m not allowed to kiss my boyfriend when i am out on the street

{pre-chorus}
But please don’t get me wrong ‘cause in the end i’m grateful that i’m allowed to love a boy

{chorus}
These struggles shouldn’t exist
All my life i was trained to kill the person that i was born to be
I don’t allow myself to have some fun ‘cause i don’t even know what i, what i truly want

{outro}
And i don’t want children ‘cause i’m afraid my child will be bullied if he’s picked up from school by two dads
And i don’t want to take that risk
So i keep on denying who my true self is