Lhado - Sleep forever

It's been half year since
I wanted to die
Sometimes i wish
I could skip to any time
A moment when i was happier
The moment when
I was happy all the time

Sometimes when i was in being myself
Not when i hate myself and do self harming
When i was the happy in my worst year
But now the happiness is harmful to me

In silence i can hear my thoughts so loud
So loud like a sound that don't let more
To sleep even to minute to be fine
Sometimеs I wish i can sleep everytime

In silеnce i can hear my thoughts so loud
So loud like a sound that don't let more
To sleep even to minute to be fine
Sometimes I wish i can sleep everytime

I've living for something that's i not give it value
I've dreaming a dream that I imortal, and i never die
I've thinking at the moments that i was light
I was mature enough that never had problems
And never was a problem
Now dreaming in not being a problem to the others
I can't belive in myself and even other peoples that i trust
When they say i was good enough
Can't live this way anymore
But i don't care anymore to be better to myself
And for my family

Even though i hate myself and dreaming in being special
Idolized
Like a master
Loved like a leader
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this love