Millicow - Demontia

{Intro}
Who are you now?
I don't understand how
Did you throw in the towel
Did you deal with your devil?

{Verse 1}
All these questions keep on running through my mind like
Have I forgiven if I kick you out of my life
Just don’t feel like you will ever get your mind right
All the love you gave was just a trick like pyrite
I can't let you make me hate cause then I'd let your demons win
Does that make any sense when I won’t talk to you again
Cause honestly you're dead to me and that's not me but you can't see
That your disease has turned you mean and given us PTSD

If this is how you treat your family
Then give me peace, just leave me be
We'll never speak again as long as you breathe
You'll die alone with your paranoid fantasies

That's a harsh thing to say but it's how I really feel
I would love to see the day when you know what is real
But you harbor so much hate for the ones who caused you pain
And now you’re just the same, just the same, you’re the same
So many times I heard you cry
"It ain't that hard to be nice"
"It really blows my mind"
So eat those fucking words sometime
Hurt people hurt people and you have too
No matter your delusional excuse
Your actions you can never reasonably explain
Trapped within the loops of your manipulated brain
Hurt people hurt people and you have too
No matter your delusional excuse
Cause you harbor so much hate for the ones who caused you pain
And now you’re just the same, just the same, just the same

{Verse 2}
So defensive of your chains
Sick within you've never changed
I'm just ash against the grain
Now my hope has gone away

Vampiric, you love to drain
I fear it, I lost my way
Been near it, too many days
Now my spirit has lost its taste
How will I ever really know
If you're healing in your soul
Every time you crush my hope
I know you tried but you’re too broken
Now I don't know what to do
I just want to run from you
Never let you suck my loosh
No more trust, to tell the truth

Burned that bridge down every time
Shut up, sit, now tell me why
You let the demons blind you with lies
Do you even try to fight
Voices twist your mind inside
Feasting every time you cry
Beating every one who tries
To show you love and make things right
Do you understand your fate
You've become what you most hate
Nudge you forward you hit the brakes
Turn around, bite like a snake
I ask for help, you say okay and
Change your mind the very next day
Terrorize my family
In your eyes what can you see

I blocked your numbers on my phone
Don't care if you die alone
Not because I'm one to hate
I just have to run away
I am not your Jesus, so
I severed every cord between us
Not because I aim to blame
I just need to stay away
Away

When your body dies you will be free
Your tower of lies you will finally see
When it falls from the sky you will face me
You're a false advertisement of self pity
I hope you see the truth just once
I want you to feel what you have done
And know that it's for only you to judge
Unlike you, I'm not one to hold a grudge
This is not a message of anger
This is only my personal reminder
Stick with love, don't be a monster
Don't fall into the cycle that ate your mind up