Deerxing - Grayscale Dreams

In retrospect, i've gleaned
You were exactly how you seemed
But i ignored a lot of things
The times you were inviting me
Betrayed an inconsistency
I'd consciously adjust
Deliberately trust
And write it off as structuring your days
Around disruptive things i knew
And couldn't envy

And i find, when i waste time
I try to convince myself
It was worthwhile
But i find, with you and i
That i was a waste of your time
And you were a waste of mine

And in those little grayscale dreams
At the tail-ends of sleep
I maybe kick your ass or kick your face
But since i'm half-awake in them
I guess that i should take
A little credit for their taking place
And deeper down i've dreamt
That there's a section of arendt
With all these easy-to-parse diagrams
And it makes sense that you'd recommend
A book i only comprehend in dreams
'cause you're impossible to understand
And i find, when i waste time
I try to convince myself
It was worthwhile
But i find, with you and i
That i was a waste of your time
And you were a waste of mine

And they call costly vices finer things
And you have yours
Whiskey and infidelity
I think i'll stick with trust and trading cards
But i've had my fill of complacency

And i find, when i waste time
I try to convince myself
It was worthwhile
But i find, with you and i
That i was a waste of your time
And you were a waste of mine
When i wrote 'how many times'
I was blind to what i would know
In two weeks' time
So i fear, with you, my dear
That you were a waste of my year