Sullii - Weather, i'm not sure

Im not an artist i just tell people i am
Im not cool i just act cool
Im not a painter and im not sure i’ve ever really been one
Im not even sure im here for the most part

I don’t dress well people just think i do because they’re even more scared than i am to do anything that attracts judgment
Mostly from people who are likely as scared as them

Most people close to me don’t actually believe in mе they just say they beliеve in me
People i’ll never meet love me more than i can possibly comprehend
I’m not sure what to do, when to do it, how, where and especially why
I think these last few years i may have actually completely lost my mind

I have the ability to love someone ever so compassionately yet don’t trust anybody enough to do so
The first of my friends to go demonstrated how to live better than anyone i know that’s alive

I’m not your friend when i’m this unsure as to whether i’m even mine