Ozumi - HowTheWeatherWas

{Verse}
Told me time will heal
That's the words I'm living by
Overcomplication all because of simple lies
Clear the air out, you really had me mystified
Try to write everything that's wrong
But I'm not feeling right
At the time
I was lost inside your eyes
Never saw through your disguise
Looking back no wonder why
I was just a young kid
So scared and numb and nullified
Sit inside the night and chop a mix until the sun would rise
How the hell to summarise how I felt ?
I can barely paint the picture
You lost out more than I did
And I know that, that shit hits ya
You made a cold world like its permanently winter
When you're closing up your eyelids
Reminded that you remember
Maybe that's the reason why the papers lit
Never could've known but still you know
I blame myself for shit
Couldn't keep up tabs on everything and had a crazy trip
I guess my brain did change a bit
Got lost inside the bars and went insane with it, ugh
Lucid dreaming its hard to tell if its real or not
Sick of sitting in silence still in the same old spot
A Withered walking paradox
Killing everything I come across
Hope to find the light
Before the sun is frost
I swear to god that I'll change
But I'll forever rot
Never been the same
Look in my face you can tell I'm lost
Left me in the cold
It was something like how the weather was
But now I'm doing better
These memories slowly turn to dust