Calico - All Alone

{chorus}
Why is it when i’m alone, i just dont know where to go
Lying to myself, i’m okay, please, god, help me, i pray
Why do i why waste so much time on the things i can’t control?
I just want my stress to die, but i don’t want to be all alone

{verse 1}
Yeah, stress can be a really painful thing, back to your old self
And you start to overthink about all the little things that they said
It might not be much, but it starts to get to your head
You pretend that you're fine and put a smile on your face
Putting on the masks, so, people won’t ask if you’re okay
Late nights are the worst, yeah, you feel likе you're cursed
With evеry bad situation, wrists slit it hurts, you know?
You’re buying all the false hope like it’s going out of stock
Pain and suffering, join the two, it’s interlocked, yeah
It never stops, like the waves on the shore
They get bigger with weather like my mind's in a storm
It’s so endless, so disruptive, never sleeping, i’m torn, you see?
Walking through the graveyard of everything that i dreamed
I just can’t stand who i am, i just need help, yeah, i plead
To the lord, "end my pain, end my suffering," i screamed, you know?

{chorus}
Why is it when i’m alone, i just dont know where to go
Lying to myself, i’m okay, please, god, help me, i pray
Why do i why waste so much time on the things i can’t control?
I just want my stress to die, but i don’t want to be all alone

{verse 2}
Yeah, i just couldn’t stand who i was
Excuses coming out of nowhere
Tryna stay in my rut and i would always be so down and
Would so easily give up on the things that i loved
Tryna swim in the mud, going through the motions
Never thinking for myself, never questioning anything
I’ve already been through hell, manm the pressure is just pushing me
Over the edge, i’m just not wanting the meds
Please just get rid of the stress, woo
You know that feeling when you’ve been so hurt you can’t cry?
Heart breaks into a million different pieces, piercing all sides?
Body’s feeling so numb, the heart is pounding
Although i try to be quiet, be so private, but i just do want to die
That’s how negative i was, that was my state of mind
Never thinking i would make it, but now i always find
A way to get rid of the worries, call it, "redefined"
I’ll never give up, vever back down, now that’s how i live life, but

{chorus}
Why is it when i’m alone, i just dont know where to go
Lying to myself, i’m okay, please, god, help me, i pray
Why do i why waste so much time on the things i can’t control?
I just want my stress to die, but i don’t want to be all alone

{verse 3}
Yeah, my stress levels were not healthy
Always looking for a way to overthink
I never noticed it was so stealthy
The way i noticed i was never normal
God left me a gift that not a lot of people have
My faith in god is so wealthy, sure i came from a place
Where life was mentally tough, but sometimes it’s the low in life
That sparks the plug, when i’m working i’m happy
And my brain is in sync, but when i’m done
I just start to overthink, i just start to overthink

{chorus}
Why is it when i’m alone, i just dont know where to go
Lying to myself, i’m okay, please, god, help me, i pray
Why do i why waste so much time on the things i can’t control?
I just want my stress to die, but i don’t want to be all alone

{outro}
I’m so alone, god help me through this
Where should i go? i am so wounded
I’m so alone, god help me through this
Where should i go? i am so wounded