Coconut Wolf - Cotton Candy & Apathy

Verse 1:

I've given up on love
Now i ain't got much
Afraid to admit when i got a crush
Every time, i admit, i've got crushed
And i never thought this
Devil's playground could ever feel so godless
It's hard to breathe, rotten lungs full of clotted blood
Don't bring the coffin up, i know i'm not the one
They wore me then say that i never fought for love
Somewhere in the cobwebs and dust is a person i've neglected
And this is the ballad of the prеcedent i've еlected
The fear's lesson never made the fear lessen
Tried the straight and narrow
But breaking arrow can't find direction
There's less outlets, wrong ways down dead ends
Circles around the premises, plans get the crescent wrench
It's death to live, i bet my bliss for heavy wings
And better hints of where heaven is
Been severed since
Open the medic kit, grab the thread and stitch
It isn't as great as you pretend it is

Chorus:
And i got my eyes open, fast asleep
Acting free, bobbing to the rattled beat of my shackled feet
Refusing to confront the dragon's teeth
Time lapse depletes before the task complete
Fumbled the latch and key, here's the fallacy
I wanna be me, but don't know how to be
So i play this carnivorous carnival for some
Cotton candy and apathy
Cotton candy and apathy

Bridge:

And it's a ferris wheel, an arcade
Another game the stars play
It's hard to say, but i feel far away
Incarcerate this heart of grey
In a vessel like a jar of clay
No courters made it hard to change
And it rubs me the wrong way that we don't spark the same
I was going with the flow until the arson came
Cotton candy and apathy

Verse 2:

And i've given up on happiness
It's chase is a crap exist to forget what the past has been
I wanna cure the pathogen, so i take the path i resist
Maybe it'll heal, maybe i'm a masochist
Maybe i'm tired of trying to mask the kiss
Placed on the savage lips that left his cabbage ripped
I never exhumed the cavity which this sad exists
I just burned that wick in hopes it kept a match lit
Turns out that creates a burnout
Be weary of the self talk, these words loud
Been a windy road full of curved routes
And it's absurd how the universe drowns
Me in images of her now
Little mementos of how the moments flow
I set sail on an ocean of hope the boat's meant to float
But every pen stroke feels like a breast stroke
And it's a vain effort because i feel so shallow
As far as depth goes
And my love language is conversed in deaf tones
(or are y'all just tone deaf?)
Chorus:

And i got my eyes open, fast asleep
Acting free, bobbing to the rattled beat of these shackled feet
Refusing to confront the dragon's teeth
Time lapse depletes before the task complete
Fumbled the latch and key, here's the fallacy
I wanna be me, but don't know how to be
So i play this carnivorous carnival for some
Cotton candy and apathy
Cotton candy and apathy
Cotton candy

Verse 3:

I've given up on the future
No matter what i do here, i'm new here
Is it too weird to say that i wish i knew fear
To be too clear, i've been feeling a little blue here
As i withdrew and appeared through the changing seasons
Still got the same reasons, that's the pain of teething
I feel ashamed believing i could ever give this name meaning
We stay shunned as the train leaving
We stay shunned as the train leaving
Going in circles, losing steam and
A little bit off track
That's from the un-sportsmen like conduct
A lot of wants, but i don't wanna
Who needs skeletons when closets hide monsters
We're all abusive reclusives, thinking a high calms us
Wine and pill drunk thinking we're functional
Rum on rocks, bumps of raw, **** it all
Because it's better to be sedated than to punch a wall
That's a symptom of us when we wanted all
Cotton candy and apathy
Cotton candy and apathy
Cotton candy and apathy