Clyde Cyrus - Lose My Mind

{hook}
I been going thru a crazy liiiiiife
Way before i hit the age of fiiive
It's hard for me to want to stay aliiive
I keep asking why me?
Why me? somebody answer me
God please! why me?
Lately i been patient tryna keep from going crazy
But my life is so insane i think that maybe i'm about to lose my mind

{verse 1}
Dear lord, what on earth am i here for?
Take control of my life now and i need you to use sheer force
Am i losing my peers or am i finding my fears more?
I cannot let a tear fall, rather let this beer pour
I'm the one that they cheer for but actually
If they knew my biggest secrets, they'd be laughing at me
I swear that self-destruct button's like a magnet to me
And i'ma stab it as the tragedies just happen to me
Catastrophe ain’t what it had to be, this is just my reality
Imagining a place where my family's living lavishly
But the school of hard knocks is the only academy
Where surviving the test of time is the most challenging
And action speaks louder than words
So when i _ myself, you won’t hear a noun or a verb
And if you do, it’ll be me shouting the first
Nine words of this verse, loudly out to the world

{hook}
I been going thru a crazy liiiiiife
Way before i hit the age of fiiive
It's hard for me to want to stay aliiive
I keep asking why me?
Why me? somebody answer me
God please! why me?
Lately i been patient tryna keep from going crazy
But my life is so insane i think that maybe i'm about to lose my mind

{verse 2}
People telling me to thank the lord
But tell me what i have to be grateful for?
How am i supposed to appreciate
When every day is way worse than the day before?
So i've been knocking on heaven's door
And that was more than a metaphor
Every time i look at my reflection more
I'm staring at someone i've never even met before
Been manipulated, intimidated, infuriated
When they infiltrated my information and demonstrated
My humiliation for entertainment on internet
All in the same day and the day isn't finished yet
Word to pac, i was dealt this, helluva hand without a plan
Feeling helpless
Because there's too many things for me to deal with
Dying inside so my pride's ready to kill shit

{hook}
I been going thru a crazy liiiiiife
Way before i hit the age of fiiive
It's hard for me to want to stay aliiive
I keep asking why me?
Why me? somebody answer me
God please! why me?
Lately i been patient tryna keep from going crazy
But my life is so insane i think that maybe i'm about to lose my mind

{verse 3}
“why did you try to kill yourself?” is what they asked me?
I said “because i wanted be happy”
I wrote a song for suicide and made it super catchy
And then perform it as a grand finale
Everyday i sit in silence as my thoughts attack me
And sadly, i can’t even fight back
People ask me if i’m doing fine, well, not exactly!
Tell these demons i just want my mind back
Broken hearts and broken promises is all i know
Broken bottles and loaded rifles laying across the floor
Going psycho, i got an open holy bible i stole
Just to buy my way to heaven so tell me where ima go
Because i’m helpless, crying for help
But everybody is so selfish, ain’t trying to help me
So what’s the point of a friends list?
Senseless, got me feeling defenseless
This pain is relentless, time for me to end this

{hook}
I been going thru a crazy liiiiiife
Way before i hit the age of fiiive
It's hard for me to want to stay aliiive
I keep asking why me?
Why me? somebody answer me
God please! why me?
Lately i been patient tryna keep from going crazy
But my life is so insane i think that maybe i'm about to lose my mind