Kuttr - Fade away

I fall apart, now nothing else feels real
I wish upon a star, the will to heal, the chance to feel
Admittedly, I'm jealous of the appeal
I could never do it like this anymore
I just really want to up and fade away
I'm forced to relive all of my past mistakes
Once was close now you are just the enemy
I swear to myself, maybe it's the way you treated me

I’ll crash until I’m safe
No place for me, I’ll end up strayed
Who are you to blame, for things that you did to me
It’s a shamе
I waited every day
For thе day you’d come right back to me
Self-deprivation, the gun pointed right at me, to help me sleep

I fall apart, now nothing else feels real
I wish upon a star, the will to heal, the chance to feel
Admittedly, I'm jealous of the appeal
I could never do it like this anymore
I just really want to up and fade away
I'm forced to relive all of my past mistakes
Once was close now you are just the enemy
I swear to myself, maybe it's the way you treated me