Chikara - Ouch

Sometimes I shouldn't be by myself
Other times I don't want your help

Lower my expectations
Is this what life was supposed to be
No answers, no reasons
Enough is enough
I give up pull the plug from me

Medicate to separate and escape and I'll be fine
Until it wears off again
Just like the last time and rewinds
And it's all getting clearer
Every time I have a look in the mirror
And stand there and just see the truth
And scream at the reflection
Where were you?
I needed you
Where were you?

Not to breath is not to be
And not to be might be comforting
And not to know keeps me wondering
Not go on, or go on suffering
Is it up to me?
Because I think it should be
I'll be better off without my life trust me
Reveling in painful awareness
The medicine of escape
Wearing off of me
Sinking into reality
Where is the comfort promised?
It's a fallacy