NVR SPRTD - Night to Cry

For some it’s a night to shine
For me it’s a night to cry
Why
Since the beginning of the week
I haven’t been able to sleep
I cannot lie down in peace
I feel my jealousy
In my mind it is creeping up
That’s the opposite of how I’m feeling
What’s up? It’s just the ceiling
My thoughts in the air like helium
All my burdens tryna carry em
No water no aquarium
All my flaws wish I could barry them
Hmm
Speaking of Barry I’ve been in the church
All my helping numbs my hurt
Not actually
I feel the pain but at least I’m helping peeps
Won’t see em on Sunday, have a meet
Feeling good that’s only half of me
Told her I’m feeling solid
Really I’ve been feeling liquid
Tears hiding in the lacrimal
God can You please take control
I’m tirеd of holding on
There’s a time to mourn and dancе
I’m not doing the second
Instead I have been weeping
But I do it all in secret
They wonder why
If they go inside
They will just see my pride
It’s so hard to shine
For some it’s a night to shine
For me it’s a night to cry
It’s a night to cry
God, I just wanna sleep
But I can’t in the evening
Only when I just awake
Am I allowed to share my pain
Put all the pain in my songs
Then they’ll ask me what is wrong
Why don’t you talk in person
All the wrong places been searching
There’s so many more I can try
But why waste my time
I know the way is God
I know the way is Jesus (Jesus I need You)
For some it’s a night to shine
For me it’s a night to cry
It's back to back nights
Can I cry (Ooooh)
Can I cry (Ooooh)
It’s a night to cry
It’s a night to cry
There’s a time to live
And there’s a time to