Benevolent Sin - Noose Silhouette

{intro}
I’m still suffering
I’m still suffering

{verse 1}
Evil voices in my head
Try turning down the loudness
Everything is turning red
Survival is a challenge
Can’t control the things i said
I’m feeling loss of balance
Break my body like it’s bread
I’ll bleed into your chalice
Bitch
Couple scars on my wrist that i can’t explain
Screaming in my car because you’ll never understand my pain
I’m mangling my body into something that don’t feel the same
It’s every day i’m losing more control over this fucking brain

{verse 2}
I figured it out
This ain’t a brain
This a parasite
Get that shit out!
I’m not afraid
Bitch i’m terrified
I said get that shit out!
Cut out the pain
Make me feel alright
I might freak the fuck out!
I need a blade cause i’m scared of myself
Debit card scratching skin off the base of my hell
Couple scars on my wrist but there’s no one i tell
They ain’t here to pick me up when they’re the reason i fell
Always crying out but they don’t send no help

{verse 3}
Bitch i am not gifted i’m the darkest form of special
I’m too mad to be an angel and too quiet for the devil
Bitch i’m jaded in your classroom so i turn to heavy metal
Hoping that i crash
I keep my foot down on the pedal
Anguish
Bitch i'm back on my pain trip
No gang shit
Masochistic tendencies
Their hatred is blatant
But i don’t see it
It's all i know so i take it
And i don’t leave it
Don't give me life just to waste it

{bridge}
Alright
They don’t seem to care if i’m alive
Still i cry

{verse 4}
Everybody knows but nobody asks
Why does he talk about suicide and how we gonna die?
Go analyze my lyrics
Tell me that i'm doing fine
Bitch my life is not a metaphor
My life is not a lie
Stop for a moment and open your eyes
See how i’m living in pain
I cannot feel comfortable inside my mind
My love is dictating my brain
Death is so abusive so i fell in love with it too
The trauma’s permanent so i cannot forget you
Just wanted love
What did i get myself into?
I wasn’t born to do the things that good men do
Just wanna quit
Every fucking year i’m moving deeper into shit
Giving all i’ve got but never make it out this pit
When i’m on the ground just walk around or turn to spit
I've been feeling broken way before the day we split
Bitch