Benevolent Sin - He/She

{verse 1}
Sexually ambiguous idiot on that gritty shit
I won’t let another bitch get intimate
Folks from home question my people and their existences
When i’m in their hell there’s no pity
I ain’t repenting shit
18 years stuck where i’m from
That’s what my sentence is
Said i’m something less than a human
I’ll never get it
But i need a release
But these problems won’t ever cease
Like this world ain’t made for twinks
So get straight or get you deceased
Damn
7 billion people but there’s no one just for me?
Damn
Write a thousand words that ain’t nobody wanna read
Damn
Every drop of water makes its way into the sea
So why’s my message in a bottle never make it to your feed?
Damn
Disgracing half my family tree (damn)
You ain’t got a say in who the fuck i wanna be (damn)
Glad i ain’t like them
Imma keep on being me (damn)
Their torch and pitchfork won’t ever be the reason i flee
Damn

{bridge}
Hold on
Hold on
I ain’t done yet

{verse 2}
Pray for me
Pray for me
They say it isn’t okay to be gay
So repent or die painfully
Enter “steve saint james” or “queen saint jane” or “probably gay”
No matter what the name, ain’t changing my ways
I’m either killing the game
Or fucking maiming it and leaving it lame
Either way the fucking answer is pain
Here’s the truth to this thing
We ain’t on the same level
But old folks all think we worship the same devil
Fuck the system, do crimes, and play metal
The revolution’s never settled
Bitch

{bridge}
(alright, would you rather have a gay son or a thot daughter?)
Damn
Thot daughter
(thot daughter?)
Yeah, thot daughter
(that shit better than having a gay son)
Yeah hell no
No gay son
Fuck that shit

{pre-chorus}
Mom and father never asked to have a thot daughter
Changed my name and took some pills and got a lot hotter
Changed my name and took some pills and got a lot hotter

{chorus}
Does that make me gay or an insecure trans chick?
I do not know like did god leave me stranded?
Stealing attention, an insecure bandit
Don’t even mention my pronouns
God damn it
Does that make me gay or an insecure trans chick?
Call me a son and you’re catching these hands, bitch
Way too much hate in this world
I can’t stand it
Everyone leave me behind like it’s tranzit

{verse 3}
Does that make me gay or an insecure trans chick?
Life isn’t going the way that i planned it
Who can i trust when my mugshot is candid?
No longer want to be part of this planet
I center the barrel and cover my eyes
Hope i rest on the floor and wake up in the sky
This is my life i can say when i die
Dysphoric visions
Ask “lord, who am i?”
Am i gay or an insecure bisexual femboy twink with a couple of kinks?
So many feelings that i cannot think
So gender fluid i drown in the drink
So gender fluid, mark all the above
I’m so sorry you hate me and all of my love
Swear i tried to be masculine
Dad taught me young
But i tried my girl’s dress and it fit like a glove
Bitch, woah