Amanda Williams - I'm trying

{Verse 1}
My mom called to tell me she's worrying again
Ignoring the texts from my friends asking me how I've been
I can't tell the truth 'cause I don't wanna be a burden
I don't wanna hurt them with all of my hurting

{Pre-Chorus}
I was fine just yesterday
What happened?
Something wrong inside my brain
A chemical imbalance
Sometimes I'm afraid I won't escape the sadness, the sadness

{Chorus}
But I'm trying, I'm trying
I'll take what the doctor prescribed
And wait until the next time that
Everything comes crashing down around me
I'm fine, yes I'm fine
I repeat that line until I believe it's not a lie
And everyone's not better off without me
I'm trying, is it enough that I'm trying?

{Verse 2}
It's useless to pretend like I don't have a problem
'Cause I've still got bruises from the last time I hit rock bottom
It's like I'm seventeen again, wondering why
I feel everything all at the same time
I can't be that girl for the rest of my life
So I try, and I try, and I try, and I try

{Pre-Chorus}
Every high comes with an expiration
(?...) washing down the medication
It's not a cry for help, more of a declaration
Sometimes I'm terrified that I won't make it

{Chorus}
But I'm trying (I'm trying), I'm trying (I'm trying)
I'll take what the doctor prescribed (I'm trying)
And wait until the next time that
Everything comes crashing down around me
I'm fine (I'm fine), yes I'm fine (I'm fine)
I repeat that line (I'm fine)
Until I believe it's not a lie
And everyone's not better off without me
I'm trying
I'm trying
Is it enough that I'm trying?