Hazel Bloom - Help

{Verse}
I hope you know I mean the best
I just can’t shake these demons in my head
Open up, try to talk, try to talk
But it seems like he’s got me by the tongue

Keep it on the right track, yelling it in my head
Don’t wanna hurt no more, I wanna have my life back
What makes me so special that I’ll never fuckin’ do it again?
How many times can I break this lie?
That I tell myself, “just one more time”

{Pre-Chorus}
I’m a slave to myself, relapse again
My god, make this stop
(I just can’t take it)

{Chorus}
Maybe if I crash my car and flew through the windshield
Would that be enough?
Would you come for me?
Would you end this?
Maybe if I drank myself to sleep one more time
Would you pull the plug?
Would you come for me?
Would you end this misery?

{Verse}
I just wanna be enough for myself
And stop comparing myself to everyone else
And it’s all my fault
I don’t really want this, I don’t really need this
I hope, I hope I really mean it
Don’t wanna be a failure to my family name
I hate the way they look at me
With disgust on their face, like we’re nothing the same

{Pre-Chorus}
I’m a slave to myself, relapse again
My god, make this stop

{Chorus}
Maybe if I crash my car and flew through the windshield
Would that be enough?
Would you come for me?
Would you end this?
Maybe if I drank myself to sleep one more time
Would you pull the plug?
Would you come for me?
Would you end this misery?