Joey the Dreamer - Environment Freestyle

Look i felt a lot of shit lately and it's been building up
For so long i tried to suppress it i still erupt
If i'm an animal to you, you can be happy cause these trigger-happy motherfuckers shoot like they don't give a fuck

I'm tired of being stuck in this fucking environment
My people die in the daily so ain't no silence gonna come from me
Still i watch for the company that i'm keeping
My brother angel but still surrounded by many demons

Tell me now what's the meaning of all the suffering
They say it's building my character i don't fuck with it
The concept it is troubling to my psychе they say just do it like nike
And i just do it dеspite the odds against me

It's like i'm fighting a war that i'm bound to lose
How much longer i gotta wait till they get the clue
How much more of my heart is left just to give to you
To one day there just ain't nothing left i second guess every moment

I second guess every moment that i pursue this dream
A rude awakening what i feel might be due to me
Every day i think of writing my eulogy all it takes
Is a crash on the highway a cop circling my way

They mistaking my wallet now for a gun again
Put 4 silver case hollow tips in my lungs again
And that's if this life takes me before i take myself
I know it's selfish but i'm not afraid of the thought of hell
The system threw my mother in jail right in front of me
And did the same to my dad later it's funny see
This pain that i live it comes and it goes in cycles
Might have to link up with santan dave going psycho

I don't know why i keep trying to search for love
It's apparent that nobody even gives a fuck
The only thing that's left of my heart is a bleeding stump
And where my heart used to be now it is freezing up

I don't got no more patience in me to give to you
If i offend you stop peeking into my window room
I'm not a hero he's just a human like you and me
I've got a package of struggles inside i choose to keep

It's hard enough i got brothers that's looking up to me
I still live with my momma now and i'm 23
I try to stay away from the crib not to burden it
Another hungry mouth to feed just makes it worse and shit

Can't handle my weight as a man we damaged financially
I keep praying and hoping this music to answer g
I send a message to god but he ain't answering
I try to love myself first i keep on dancing with the devil

The thoughts are often constructed my mental though
I keep it simple stupidly refused to work in 95
But when i try to do it the time i want to die the most
But i would rather die living my truth than to live a lie
I would rather tell you this now than to be surprised
I got some psychodrama in my life i keep inside
I got some psychodrama in my life i keep inside
I got some psychodrama in my life i keep inside