Parkwood - Illusion of Care

Scream at the clock to stop
But, man, it’s hopeless
Time keeps rollin' on, I’m losing focus
Brain fog clouds my game, I gain nothing
Time turns dreams to dust, you gain nothing
Fucked up, how the earth seems to bait me
Grounded myself then launched up to space
Be constantly aware of all that you fear
Of the wrong you've done
Drift into the sun

There’s a devil inside my head
Taking hold of what I do next
There’s a devil inside my head
Taking control of my neurotic sense
There’s a devil inside my head
Get it, get it out, or push it down

Seems like a shock
My face drops, I cope less
Hey, man, where’d the time go?
We wrote this many years ago with dreams of greatness
Time turned dreams to dust
And now I fake this phony aspiration of “scene-ery”
I can’t shake the feeling I’m meant to be
Broken and alone, spend each night at home
I can’t focus on anything for long
Time keeps rollin’ on and on and on
While I keep stallin’ on and on and on
How damn long can this go on and on?
The clock ticks fastest when I’m all alone
I waited on my own
For an unknown fortune to come
I waited on my own
Unknown to any one

(I felt the absence of God)
(I felt the absence of God)
(I felt the absence of God)
(I felt the absence of God)

There’s a devil inside my head
Taking hold of what I do next
There’s a devil inside my head
Taking control of my neurotic sense
There’s a devil inside my head
Get it, get it out, or push it down

I stared at the void before I threw myself in
Total complacency within
As I looked to the sky, I felt the absence of God
Without illusion of care
I saw Death standing there