Joshua Leddin - MEDS BESIDE MY BED

{verse}
Schooldays i never gave a shit
Sitting back of class i was a quiet kid
Put my earphones in and watched the clock tick
Always knew this life had more to give
Then graduate college and act like a prick
Think you're the shit cause you're in a lil clique
Why u getting gassed bout some likes on a pic?
That shit too basic it going make me sick
Everyone said you're just a misfit
Well this same misfit got yo girl on my dick
Got me like ye yeah i'm off the grid
Antisocial ay ain't got time for no bih
Rather die then to forgive
Yeah i'm hitting up the plug yeah i'm tryna see what's in
Damn i made it this far didn't think i'd outlive
I just wanna wake up happy without these thoughts i'm tryna get rid

{chorus}
Yeah i'm still taking those meds i keep beside my bed
All these months can't get you out my head
Say i won't feel like this
Well let's put that to the test
All this overthinking got me feeling a mess
Haven't attempted in months yeah my therapists impressed
You say i'm depressed but i think i just need rest
You say hit me up the days you're feeling stressed
But when i do you just leave me on read

{bridge}
Everyday i'm just tryna be my best
But that gets hard when you're better off dead
Sick of this shit rather be by my lonely
Remember that time when i tried to od
Very next day acting like you didn't know me
But when i go ay don't act like you known me

{chorus 2}
Yeah i'm still taking those meds i keep beside my bed
All these months can't get you out my head
Say i won't feel like this
Well let's put that to the test
All this overthinking got me feeling a mess
Haven't attempted in months yeah my therapists impressed
You say i'm depressed but i think i just need rest
You say hit me up the days you're feeling stressed
But when i do you just leave me on read
Leave me on read
With these thoughts in my head
And these meds beside my bed
Meds beside my bed