Ivycomb - Suspend My Belief

It's all so grey
When did it all fade?
Was it ever even there
At all from the start?
(breathe..)

It's fallen away
Was i ever this afraid?
Why am i even scared
If i don't have a heart?
(breathe..)

If i'm this out of touch
Why does it hurt so much?

I'm falling back into the floor
To find what i'm not searching for
Do my own eyes deceive me?
Or am i now seeing clearly?
What do i believe in anymore?

Suspending my belief
Is not what i had asked for
To leave mе clueless was a gift
That much i'm sure
Was this my only purposе?
To be your obstacle?
Is my life truly worthless?
Was this all optical?

Now i'm connecting the dots
And i've unraveled the knots
That kept me safe from
A life of emptiness

Now i'm lost in my thoughts
Still don't know who calls the shots
But i can see that it's clearly not me

It's all a lie
Why should i even try?
If i'm just an a.i
Tryna play the bad guy

I'm only worth as bout as much
As this role that i've been given
I'm just playing my part
In this life that i'm not living

I'm falling back into the floor
To find what i'm not searching for
Do my own eyes deceive me?
Or am i now seeing clearly?
What do i believe in anymore?
Suspending my belief
Is not what i had asked for
To leave me clueless was a gift
That much i'm sure

But if i made it worth it
Then maybe i'm not worthless
If you can win this game
Maybe my life won't be in vain

(small side note to be removed later. if you have anything to add, be it section headers
{i am awful at them, these are much appreciated!} or better organization, please do. first time i've tried transcribing a song of ivycomb's.)