Rivilin - All I Bring Is Shame

{verse 1}:
With eyes wide shut
Did you expect much
A kid, 16, stolen car, burnt clutch
30 over the limit
Yeah, losing traction to the sludge
Car goes out the boundary
Yeah, that's the first time i lost touch
In my brain there's something
Still a stain on my name
Dread of reaching to someone
But all that's left is pain
Are we truly all alone in this life?
You bring a kid out who can't walk
And put his neck to the scythe
Then you ask how he's doing
Does he ever jump yet
You're always lockеd in your room
Yeah, are you upset?
It's not likе you would even understand
If i explained
A father's expression is done
When you just bring shame
I had a conversation with the devil
In the undertown
No matter how hard you work
You'll still be someone that you love
Yeah, i know that you're someone that i just hate
At least i can admit it
So i just put up with the weight

{chorus}:
I'm just a burden, i'm just a burden
Everything's too much i'm still hurting
I'm not certain, i'm not certain
If i stay can i still say i'm alive
It's just disturbing, it's just disturbing
Everytime i leave it's not working
I'm just lurking, i'm just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie

{verse 2}:
A life tied to the noose
Yeah always bad news
Do i stay? do i go?
Yeah i never can choose
Making friends with the pills
It's the same, see another psycho
Has to see a baby not to know my name
I gave too much, everything you betrayed
Or if i'm not careful i'll end up gone
Cause (?...)
When i tell them i just need a break
Keep on pushing on my mental state
I'll end up in a shallow grave
It'll sink, sink into someone i don't know
See my life downhill and i say please go
I don't wanna know about something that i will never be
There is a heavy weight on my chest
And i think i'm meant to feel (alone)
I feel the hate, feel the skin
Just a heretic within
Or at least your god would say
What's the problem, yeah what's wrong
Thought i made this one strong
Chuck him down to the sides
He was messed up inside

{chorus}:
I'm just a burden, i'm just a burden
Everything's too much i'm still hurting
I'm not certain, i'm not certain
If i stay can i still say i'm alive
It's just disturbing, it's just disturbing
Everytime i leave it's not working
I'm just lurking, i'm just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie

I'm just a burden, i'm just a burden
Everything's too much i'm still hurting
I'm not certain, i'm not certain
If i stay can i still say i'm alive
It's just disturbing, it's just disturbing
Everytime i leave it's not working
I'm just lurking, i'm just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie