Not koi - I'm not laughing

Burn and crash out
No talking now
Lay on the ground
Thinking about what’s next
Something I said
Flew over your head
I wish I was dead
But please don’t count me out

Waiting, i’m waiting, i’m waiting, just waiting to die
I can’t even say why

Bury my bones
Before they get cold
Let me rest neath a willow
So my spirit will hold
I’m not laughing
It’s just my friends
They’ll clap at your jokes
They’ll cheer through your prose

Could you, would ever think about me, when you’re falling asleep?
I’m sure the news was painful

So now I lay here
Covered from my head to my toes
Masking my face
Seal tight round my nose
I hope you don’t see me
Just a corpse and their note
I guess my time’s just up
Hands stiff around my throat