Poorly wrote suicide note - Pulse

Maybe someday I can be what I've made you all long before
Just another dumb name in a song
They said I had hopeful eyes
But the film grew over my eyes
And I've grown into something they despise
Baby, it's too cold outside
For anything with a pulse to stay alive
Why do you think i told you to take off the handles on the door when i went out to smoke?
Everything means nothing when it's being said to you
And here I am crying over the child I never knew
Everything means nothing when it's being said to you
And I guess here I am crying over the child I guess I never knew