Own. - Force Field

Fake realities, i don't need them
Never needed them, never wanted them before
Some gravity takes us down to the ground
Back to where we belong
It’s just a question of time, when we will fall?
Big show, big mouth - after all, i feel so small
I guess we are a bit like puppets on a string
Keep it big but never really mean a thing for real

All for you, i'm pretending, i never keep things real
All for me, i'm defending the least bit i can feel

I won’t deal with a world that's never dealt with me
I will bleed 'til i've learnt my lesson - how to feel

I will bleed 'til i've learnt my lesson
To kill my depression that dwells inside of me
I will keep things real all for myself
To escape this red hell that i built inside of me

I shed a thousand tears i swept into other spheres
I found my place but my place always was right here
So much pain that i been through, the rain gave me a clue
Maybe all i've been searching for is you

You to remind me of what went wrong
It's not my fault but i take the blame
You inspired me to this song
I may be cracked but you keep me sane
Does any change that’s real actually exist in a world that is so alien to me?
Can’t you see this world's alienated me?
Are my thoughts really free as long as i don’t have the tool to work them out for me?
Sanity? i locked the door but i lost the key

I release the pain inside, so long denied
None to talk to, and i swear
I've never felt as lost before in my whole life
And the moment i woke up was the ugliest moment in my life

Your lies cut me either
Drag me down to fill you
This is not what i supposed to have been
What can heal the pain?
To your rise, cut them and deal with no pain
So for all the foetal, and for all the cold rain
Cut your life down to size
Provide yourself some shoes that fit in the footsteps i have stumbled in
Just for you, the footsteps i have stumbled in