​ghostdaughter - ​i still remember it all

{verse 1}
In 2017 i got addicted to painkillers
In the six weeks before we met
And after that i took them only when i needed
Like the night you called me back
And in the mornings we would walk to class and smoke cheap cigarettes
Because menthols taste healthier, right?
Back then i didn’t sleep and i wrote shitty poetry
About newark when my grandma died

{chorus 1}
And i hope you don’t remember at all
You just grab the money and i’ll take the fall
I nevеr moved to new york, but i went thеre on tour; i’ve got your notes in my drawer
I still remember it all

{verse 2}
In 2021 i mixed klonopin and whiskey
In the city where angels go to die
And i made a man a flower crown then passed out on his living room floor
And said “don’t touch me, i’m fine”
See, my ambition was a prison, wanted to carve my name into
The bones of everybody i met
Back then i didn’t see beauty in just about anything
So i guess it turned out just how you said
It would

{chorus 2}
But i hope you don’t remember at all
Been running away, it’s getting harder to walk
I don’t know what it was for, getting ruined for sport; goddamn victorian whore
I still remember it all

{verse 3}
Reading my old journals, double-checking it got better
And my hands still turn purple when it’s cold, so i’ll wait seven years
‘til there’s nothing left of who i was but melody and fever
I hope next time, when she says she’s too high you’ll stop
And you'll believe her

{chorus 3}
One day i won’t remember at all
The pictures all faded, now we’re outlined in chalk
I never moved to new york, but i’ll go there on tour; i guess that settles the score
I still remember it all