June Henry - ​rituals

People started seeing you around
Now I'm on the lookout whenever I'm downtown
Still weeping like a wounded animal
Whenever I think too hard about a year ago

Everyone says I am better now
It's obvious in my face, on my mouth
I'm not awake until 4
I'm not shaking on the floor
Of the party I went to without her

So I'm letting this part of me go
Wish you could come with but you don't
Make any sense in this world that I've made
I'm done with the stress hives
Doing rituals to make sure you're home safe

There's only so much magic can do
When you won't let my words get close to you
I wasn't mad, I was scared
I didn't know what to do
I offered you my home
I made you my best soup

I never knew you sober
Wonder if I would've liked her
Like I loved you
Like I loved you
I still love you
And I still love you
And I still love you
I don't want to
But I still love you
God, I love you
I still do