​midwxst - ​sixteen

{verse 1}
Wish i could go back and be sixteen again
When i had no worries 'bout my future plans
This cycle keeps going, it don't seem to end
Wishing i cherished the time that we spent
I never noticed how fast that it went
I move without thinking, my thoughts on a whim
Child of god, but the lord knows i've sinned
The nights that i tried to take my life
Said that i'm fine while dying inside
It isn't healthy, i know i need help
But i'd rather suffer alone, by myself
Don’t want you to care, don't wanna share
My vision's clear, talk but don’t hear
You know the rest, miss all my friends
Wish it would end, the suffering begins

{chorus}
I'm not good at saying goodbye
Too scared of death, not ready to die
But one day, i know that i'll flatline
When i die, i don’t want you to cry
Don’t be worried, i'm doing alright

{post-chorus}
I'm tired of funerals, and wearing all black, and hospital beds
I hate this damn universe
I watched my friends die, and i couldn't even stop it
And i don't know what’s next for me, running out of options
Wish they could've grown up and blossomed
So this song is for them, i'm not stoppin'

{chorus}
I'm not good at saying goodbye
Too scared of death, not ready to die
But one day, i know that i'll flatline
When i die, i don’t want you to cry
Don’t be worried, i'm doing alright

{post-chorus}
I'm tired of funerals, and wearing all black, and hospital beds
I hate this damn universe
I watched my friends die, and i couldn't even stop it
And i don't know what’s next for me, running out of options
Wish they could've grown up and blossomed
So this song is for them, i'm not stoppin'