Benevolent Sin - I'm Scared, You Win

{intro}
Always told i must be fearless in the face of danger
I’m terrified what gave life last night is today a stranger
Can’t catch my breath when i step outside cause your hate’s a strangler
I think i’m most scared of myself when i display my anger
I don’t want to scare you
I just want you to be happy but i should be there too
I see gruesome sights out windows that i used to stare through
I can’t live my life in peace cause now i must compare to you
I’m scared

{pre-chorus}
You win
I’m scared, you win
I’m scared, you win
I’m scared, you win
I’m scared, you win
I’m scared, you win
I’m scared, you win
I’m scared, you win

{chorus}
Every time i have nightmares
It’s you in ‘em
Had to get a taste, now i flee that venom
I can see you standing right there
There’s no winning
Always had a thing for these evil men
Now every time i have nightmares
It’s you in ‘em
Had to get a taste, now i flee that venom
I can see you standing right there
There’s no winning
Always had a thing for these evil women

{verse 1}
No matter how hard i try, i can’t forget you
You haunt my dreams and that’s a motherfuckin issue
Freddy krueger core with the shit that i’m getting into
Hope i scare that bitch too
Shit but i don’t mean that
I just get fucking angry each time i relapse
I won’t plead for second chances
Just need to fix where my dreams at
Cause sometimes i fall asleep and it feels like before we detached
Thought your evil was my kink but now i flee that
Wait

{verse 2}
Every time i have nightmares
It’s you in ‘em
Now i’m terrified when the light goes dim
Scared to close my eyes
I might let you in
Override the mind
Rectify my sins
Like alright you win
Fistfuls of fiction within your lens
Chose making yourself the victim instead of making amends
Why did you ever convince me that we were friends?
I don’t ever want to see you again
And now all my friends are dead too
They left just like you
Now my bedroom
Is such a desolate mood
I won’t rest soon
Need a rescue
From the mess you made
Cause everybody switch up like the beat in the end
Got a need for a bitch in my sheets
I repent
Lord amen
Just a kid
Not a beast in the pen
But i send for release with the pen
You ain’t ready for me then, bitch

{bridge}
I’m scared, you win
I don’t want to scare you
I just want you to be happy but i should be there too
Every time i have nightmares
I don’t know what i am
But i’m sure not a man
It’s a difficult hand
Need a plan of attack
Woah

{verse 3}
Come from my fam and i’m slamming you back
Hate that i’m trans but you’re damn well attached
Woah
Hateful ass bitches wanna cancel my act
I don’t care, bitch i’m back
I don’t care, bitch i’m back
It’s a fact that i turned into an icon
Can’t suppress my pride
Getting naked for the nikon
Everybody eyes on me
I don’t want them in my life
I put my life on stream
Trauma logged on spotify so you can’t lie bout me
Feeling like i could die twice
Ice in my eyes
Remember knives in my wrist
It’s been way too many nights i’ve had to deal with that shit
I don’t care, bitch i’m pissed
I don’t care, bitch i’m pissed
It’s a myth that you ever really loved this
Funny you don’t mean it when you’re telling me to suck dicks
I’m not serving cunt for republicans to hunt it
I ain’t scared of nothing
Bullshit

{outro}
Every time i have nightmares
It’s you in ‘em
Always had a thing for these evil men
Now every time
Wait
Every time i have nightmares
It’s you in ‘em
Always had a thing for these evil women
You non-binary folks are evil too