​elliebell - Estates like home

I am drifting through each passage
Playing with ideas that once meant everything to me
Help me find a mark to remember
Why each breath isn't yours, it's who you want to be
Could anyone reach so far?
And it was hard to hold on without you
So i'd picture your smile
Stuck together, we're torn apart
So i'll break our ropes, untethered
Lost in contact, i'm torn apart
Again i find things revealing
A nature i didn't know i'd need
Retract all that's keeping me going
What i'd hear when it got hard to breathe

(just try to hold on for now)

A frame that doesn't fit me anymore
Arе you certain it ever did?

Fracturеd like wilted flowers in your wake
In honesty i've lost hope for our process
And all i knew was to hold on to you
And all i could see were your conflicting colors

Nothing to keep me around
Flinching without intent
Identity detached through breakdowns
Never connected again

A thread strung through
I'm beginning to wonder
If i've ever made it past this filter
When they'd drive me up north
And i'd trace the signs around us
Wondering what leads to losing sight
Erasing composure
I'll break as you reach me

And in familiar hills i remember
To feel things i'm sure are allowed
And i just can't hold myself together
Reaching for words that can hold me down

At least it's coming to a close
I'll leave some words unsaid
Tearing down something i'd kill to uphold