​elliebell - An ending, a start

They'll take care of themselves
And i'll let go of mine
Not a bother, promise
It's all that i wanted
When nothing feels real
And i'm tearing my own skin off
Resounding worries that i
Can't quite place

So when all those pretty
Light strips are blaring
Snow falls through my window
I'm hiding, enclosed in a
Comfort i found myself
Then you pull me out
Walk aimlessly
Hope in the unknown
When it all feels like
Crumbling, caving in
Gone with the wind
The leaves fall and it's
Tearing through me too

This pit inside me
My stomach is shifting
A cloudless air cuts
My ideas to the floor
Trail into the street
I hope they don't hit me
But it's nice to feel things
Slipping away

To be gone in a moment
Things persist, feel broken
I'll drift through a season or two
(and i don't know where to go)
Substance transparent in my
Deforming bones
Where is its heart?

All these answers unfounded