Blood Girl - Woodchipperbrain

With a woodchopper brain
And a bomb for a heart
I am tearing every single of my little thoughts apart
And i am waiting at the busstop for a bus that dont arrive
And i am realising now that its a metaphor for life
I wear a t shirt that was yours once and now its on my floor
And i am laying in my bed and i can’t get out of my door
And i think ground of floating lava shirts
Are you my newest death?
And then i try to roll onto the floor
To break my own head
And with a bolt scissor hand
And a thigh that is clay
I am shaping a statue that is shaped just like me
I am bleeding on the carpet but the carpet is red
And i am bleeding on my pjs i am bleeding in my bed
And i am sleeping unsoundly i waking in black
I am opening my eyes and feel the shape of world come back
I think im blinded by deprеssion but i know it couldn’t be
Yet i feel like im blind cus i can’t see pеople see me

And now my skull is an ashtray
Cus that is my lunch
Eating my feelings so they dont leak out
Chain-smoking menthol cigarettes and laying flat on the ground
Hoping i can wake up tomorrow without
The haunting pain that is living i just want to breathe
An air that is air and doesn’t sound like forgive me
I want what i can’t have
And i can’t have what i want
Which is for someone to put a gun in my mouth

And with a brain that is mine
And a heart full of shame
I am trying to let go of the balloon that is the blame
And i dont know how to act around the people i know
If i am happy im annoying but if im sad i am alone
I’d do whatever you tell me
I’d melt in the sun
If someone would just give me some directions i’ve got none
Cus if i knew what i was doing do you think it would be this?
I am tired im tired im tired of feeling like shit
Feeling like this