Blood Girl - Sad for too long

I’ve been sad for so long
I’ve been sad for too long to keep fighting
Keep holding on
Keep holding on to silver lightning
Breaking habits
Is hard when i dont really wanna
Easier to
Stay in my room and do jack shit

Watching tv
Shows about angels and demons
Doing crosswords
Sleeping heavy without dreaming
Same depression
I’ve been in since i was a child
I can’t forgive it
All this time I’ve wasted crying
God is but a puppetmaster
Boobytrapping cus he can
Im stuck inside this empty barren
God forsaken nara dreamland
Nothing gives me pleasure
Just like nothing really hurts
Its just an empty void of static
Just a road of unwalked dirt