Blood Girl - Loser

Neuroscience so i can understand my brain
Constant lying to subtly downplay the pain
Of being non-existent and see through like a slug
Of being so convincing that no one really knows what's up
I was born a loser and i was a loser growing up
I always say the wrong thing i always hate the things i want
I always cause commotion and if you put me on the job
I am almost useless i am almost always wrong

Seeing patterns in sporadic random acts
Doesn’t matter no one cares and no one asked
Im a bit reclusive i just clam up on the spot
Introducing: what you see is what you got
I was born a loser and im still a loser now
I am lost in childhood i can’t mourn it and grow up
I always speak in twisters or i tend to make you laugh
But im not that funny its just how most people react
If im playing wack-a-mole with god am i the hammer or the beast?
Is god just pest control how he is constantly tryna get rid of me
Someones gotta know, I’ve done so many tests for nothing
At this point someone has got to have the answer in their pocket