Blood Girl - I'll write again

Ill write again , not out of spite
But out of hope that something might
Cross my mind and hope to live
Wouldn’t even know it if
I suddenly woke up like them
Happy blissful ignorance
They dont even seem to see
The sun dont shine in their tv

But still ill write and write i will
Ill take the stupid happy pills
And never sleep a day again
But maybe i can see my friends
Instead of staring into space
For six or seven hours straight
And maybe i can dig a well
To throw my wishes into
Hell, ill give my all to feel like you
To think that ill be happy too
I used to once, but somethings changed
Somеthing grown from years of pain
And if i look within i might
Slit my wrists and hope to die
So ill look outwards walk thе streets
Distract myself with weeks of sleep

Ill break the pattern another day
Too tired to get better, they
All ask me:how, how can i help?
But i can’t even help myself
Im worn out like a pair of shoes
I've been around Iive paid my dues
I’ve seen the tunnel and no shit
There is no light at the end, just more of this