TopazFuq - ​spiraling spinel satisfaction

These feelings
How can i deal with them?
They are beyond my control
Tell me how can i save myself?

I'm gonna die young if i don't love you
I'm gonna die alone with no one to go to
I'm gonna die so no one will have to go through
All the crying they hear from my sorry little mouth
And i wish i would've told you how i felt
Cuz without you, i am nothing and my life's up on the shelf
We beared arms through the twists and turns
Now left with nostalgic burns
I'm spiraling beyond my control

I

Used to give you highs
But you've left me with lows
I'll remember your lovеly eyes
Even whеn i overdose

Baby, know i love you most
But please ignore the cries
Cuz i've been taking notes
On how to be just like the other guys

These feelings
How can i deal with them?
They are beyond my control
Tell me how can i save myself?

When i think of you i tear up
We could've had so much together, why the fuck'd we breakup?
I always think about you every night before i sleep
And instead of counting sheep i always tend to overthink
We spent so much time together, i can't find a reason
Get through all this agony cuz it feels just like a prison
I tried to cut you out of my life cuz i thought i would feel better
And then i eventually find myself crying in your sweater

These feelings
How can i deal with them?
They are beyond my control
Tell me how can i save myself?