Amélie - Pain Of My Brain

I hate myself
I hate the way that I feel
They turned me into a whole mess
Never wanted to kill myself
As much as I want now
I'm fucked up
My girl don’t deserve this at all
I love her but I'm unanable to heal
My anxiety is eating me
I always imagine the worst
I'm scared of everything
I can’t leave peacefully
Not very proud to write this
You found and accept me as I am
I can't get out this pain of my brain
It starts to spread over my body
I feel like my heart's gonna brеak
Think I'm gon' end up in a hospital
I can barely eat
Just ablе to scrolling my phone
What do I do if I'm not even useful to myself ?

Lately my life is a roller coaster
I can't promise you I'll stay alive forever
You’re bringing me a lot of happiness
But still can’t promise that I'll be with you forever
I don’t wanna go home dealing with it all alone
I have to keep my mind busy so my thoughts don't invade me
Love was the only medicine to heal my pain
But right now its only getting worse
Living in my own game
I'm the main player
And I keep losing my parts
Why is everyone pretending ?

I can't get out this pain of my brain
It starts to spread over my body
I feel like my heart’s gonna break
Think I'm gonna end up in a hospital
I can barely eat
Just able to scrolling my phone
What do I do if I'm not even useful to myself ?
No one can save my life
Except the girl I'm in love with