Nathan Johnson - Hindsight

(There is no debating that the effects of trauma experienced in childhood, may have grave consequences)

I think my past is catching up
Steady dodgin' my demons
Write my feelings
And hope that this weed can help with my healing
I think my past is catching up
Feel like I'm losing my presence
Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend

I think my past is catching up
Steady dodgin' my demons
Write my feelings
And hope that this weed can help with my healing
I think my past is catching up
Feel like im losing my presence
Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend
Feel like my past is catching up, thе more I'm dodging these shadows
Dark days arе upon us and everybody so fragile
It's like we wallow in our sorrows, take a bite of the apple
Maybe sniff some snow white, hope it saves us the hassle
Of being stuck inside this world where depression takes over
All this weight on my shoulders, feel like I'm lifting a boulder
Every hour is colder, makes it hard to stay sober
Time stop moving slower, I feel the anger get closer
I hide my low self esteem behind the guise of being modest
Pushing for perfection 'cause these people only love flawless
Looking back at my self through these reflections that's honest
I can visualize the monster that's inside of these sonnets
Strugglin' to look in the mirror, who's this monster I've conjured
But I can't talk to nobody, 'cause nobody is bothered
Livin' in the depths of this darkness every day gettin' harder
Tryna better myself, but I'm too much of my father

I think my past is catching up
Steady dodgin' my demons
Write my feelings
And hope that this weed can help with my healing
I think my past is catching up
Feel like I'm losing my presence
Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend

I think my past is catching up
Steady dodgin' my demons
Write my feelings
And hope that this weed can help with my healing
I think my past is catching up
Feel like I'm losing my presence
Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend
Every day another struggle just for me to wake up
My girl and I have been fighting, and I'm afraid to break up
My Momma question my logic she thinks I'm being a bum
Wanna argue but can't 'cause money goes when it comes
Bills been kicking my ass I'm fightin' back but won't last
'Cause every penny I spend kills me like it's my last
Never high, never low, just painfully in the middle
And with the world being big, makes a nigga feel little
All this time going by, my anger makes me so brittle
Breaking off from my family I feel a part of me cripple
Feeling like I'm my father in every verse that I scribble
Same person, different story gettin' caught off these nickels
And these dimes hold me up, try to dodge 'em, it's tough
Watch my father run through 'em that's where prollems stem from
Watch him beat on my momma, that anger left me with trauma
I'm ashamed to look like him, but we have so much in common
I think my past is catching up

I think my past is catching up
Steady dodgin' my demons
Write my feelings
And hope that this weed can help with my healing
I think my past is catching up
Feel like I'm losing my presence
Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend
I think my past is catching up
Steady dodgin' my demons
Write my feelings
And hope that this weed can help with my healing
I think my past is catching up
Feel like I'm losing my presence
Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend

(I think my past is catching up)

(I think my past is catching up)

(I think my past is catching up)

(I think my past is catching up)